Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Thoughts on Wake-up Pictures...or Something



Well, I said things were gonna get a little more personal around here, and here we are! Nothing like three pictures of myself at the top of a post to drive that one home. I admit, it's a bit weird for even me, but there's a purpose for it! I think anyway...

So, what's with this whole wake up picture thing? I've actually gotten some questions about that and I figured that I'd kind of sit and down and try and dissect just how the whole thing came about, and where it could be going. It's still a little messy in my head, so bear with me on this.

I have no idea how it started...


I think the first one was done back about three months ago now. That was just a one shot thing, then another came around only two weeks after it. More goofing around than anything else, and not really much of a trend either. About a two weeks ago though, I stumbled across those two thanks to a couple of folks commenting on them via Instagram. My conclusion? Let's do another...which turned into a regular thing since.

What happened since the first one taken on March 3rd? I'm not even sure, just something clicked. So, kind of fell into the habit of taking a shot and using it everyday with my normal waking posts on social media. The cool thing is, a few other people have started to do it as well! Not as frequently, but it's still pretty cool to see the various states of wakeful people.

I mean really, look at these two...it's awesome!

That brings me to the why do this at all? 


Well, I have no idea. Seriously, I don't. Though, it's become kind of addictive and it's sad that I can only do one a day because the weirdness of them has become sort of endearing to me. Sure, that might sound vain, but this is catching myself in a unique light that's not typically seen other than me every day either. Is there some kind of statement there? Some sort of grandiose plan?

The photographer in me wants to say something deep and meaningful, but that's just blowing smoke up everyone's ass. I do it because it's fun and that's really all there is to it. Though...now that I'm thinking about that, let's let the inner photographer out.
It could have to something to do with awareness on some level. Showing people that there's a beauty in all of us, even if we're all messy hair and looking like some half dead form of a human before caffeine. Maybe some of that ties into my own journey through transitioning as well? I'm not sure as that thought process hasn't fully fleshed itself out yet, but it very well could be a way to document and show the world that we're just silly little creatures like the rest of you.
Well, that was insightful and could be the true root cause of this. It could also be that and that it's fun to do and the answer is both reasons on some level. Again, I really don't know but it's a possible thing to consider in the end. I will be continuing it for as long as it seems like something worth doing. How long? Could be months, a year, longer? No clue.

Anyway, that's about it on that one, just figured I'd put some thoughts down about it and get back into the swing of writing here. Yes, you will see more of this kind of thing, along with more regular news and articles that used to happen around here, which will now be happening again so it'll be regular...so yeah, buckle up! Gonna be a weird year!

Sunday, March 12, 2017

2017 Recap So Far...

Things have been quiet again around here, and I do apologize for that. I was trying to get some things in order and figure out the next steps for not only myself, but the site in general as well. Good news is that there have been some conclusions about just those things!

First off, things were really bad for a while there. I was out of work for a few weeks and the resulting depression and feeling of not wanting to get anything done on top of stressing out on how I was going to afford things like food and all was a little much. However, managed to dig out of that hole thanks to some really amazing people and a little creative thinking. (It's amazing what you can do with ramen noodles!)

That was the bad, and yeah, was pretty ugly. 


Not the first time either, but that's so long ago now that it's not really worth bringing up other than to say that. Anyway, I've managed to keep a roof of my head, and some kind of food around so that I don't starve...which is good. I've also decided to move later on this month. Yep, that's right, once again the Kverse HQ will be moving!

Where? Well, really just a couple of miles down the road but it's into a house with a couple of other people and that should prove to be interesting. It's going to be fun to try and figure out just how to get all my stuff into there, but my room is the largest and I think I can go the whole studio apt thing in there to get things settled. We'll see, and definitely expect to see some updates as I work on a new set and backdrop for streaming.

EDIT: None of that is happening now. Gotta love that last minute changes, right? Pretty messed up over this one as it throws a ton of problems at me, which I'm not quite ready to deal with, nor can. Not gonna go into it as the situation has me a bit too on edge right now.


Speaking of that, I am kicking back into doing Overwatch and Wildstar streams. No clue if it'll expand and I'm still working out a schedule for that, but that'll evolve over time with the new job as I get settled into a new routine. I host all those on my personal YouTube channel, so check it out if you're feeling inclined to do such.

There's also been an odd infatuation with doing "first thing in the morning" pics and posting them. You've likely seen them on my personal social media stuff, as I've been good about getting one up everyday for the past week or so, it's been...an interesting experiment and one that I'll likely keep doing as well. At least until it becomes what it's not...whatever that is, I still don't know.

Oh! I've also changed jobs. No more delivery girl stuff for me, thank the gods. I mean, look, it was a decent paying gig and all that but it was destroying my social life, causing tons of stress due to relying on tips so much, and also just thrashing my car. All three of those things, after a year? Yeah, no...I'm so done. Get weekends off now too, woohoo!

So, that's where things are in the personal realm. What about the site you ask? 


Well, I haven't forgotten about that and I'm still working on the Haunt Tour 2016 autopsy post. That's just taking a bit of time and, if I'm honest with myself, is really hard to write. Something about realizing one's own faults and airing them out there, it's just not something I do. Well, I do, but not here...usually on social media is where you'll see some pretty raw stuff a lot of the time. Trying to bring that here too, no idea why but it seems the right thing to do.

Oh! Also, things have changed slightly in coverage for the year. Thanks to the new job, we're still on hiatus from doing event coverage. That sadly means that Tekko is out for us. Always a great con, and with it being basically just down the road, always was something we loved to do. Just not going to work with everything else going on right now. So, it's looking like the first big event for the year will be Anthrocon 2017.

In the meantime? Who knows, I'll figure something out. More than likely anyway.

That's it for now though, going to cut this one a little short so I can get a few other projects started/finished or to other various stages of things. Until next time...

Sweet Screams and Pleasant Nightmares!

Monday, January 2, 2017

A look back, a look forward, and there's something under the couch...


2016 was a crazy year on a ton of levels. Not only for the site here, but also for myself personally. A lot of things accomplished, and a lot of things not so much fully realized. But, before I get to all of that, you may want to get a little comfy. Grab a drink and and relax, I'll just hang out here for a few, go on.

Seriously, go on, it's okay.

We okay? No? Okay...take your time.

Back? Ah, okay, good. Let's get this going, shall we?

First thing's first. Some of you likely noticed, things have changed as far as the staff around here. No longer is Alex a member of the team, her life has become very busy and while she still attends a lot of the events we do, it's under different circumstances and that's cool.

Carrie and I have also decided to mostly part ways, this is both in our personal lives as well as with our blogs. Will we do things together in the future? I have no doubt on that, but it won't be nearly as much as in the past. We're still friends and all, but just needed to go our own ways for a variety of reasons.

As for the rest, the team is pretty much the same! So, not much change on that front, other than Fil's apparent extended role in things during the months of Sept and October for Haunt Tour. That's pretty cool actually, and a very welcome change to things I think.

Still, the team is pretty thin these days and leaves myself mostly on point for a lot of the events and trips that the Kverse site covers. That proved to be a pretty big challenge in 2016 and I've learned quite a few things from that. A lot of things didn't get fully finished, or even started, and my apologies for that immensely. Not only to you guys, but also the events and businesses I go to. Going to have to work on that more going forward.

So just where are things going? Great question!

 I have no fuckin' idea. 

The point of this whole thing here was to chronicle the weird happenings in my life and the industries and events I care about/are a part of. Somewhere along the line I think that maybe that was missed a little and figuring out just what I want out of this, as well as my own life, has taken a surprising amount of time. Who knew? Top that off with living on my own for the first time in a long while and a whole lot of other changes with me and it's been one crazy as hell year.


Oh, yeah...there's no denying that.

I've been without food, close to losing a place to live, and a whole host of other things. The most obvious, my transition that started earlier this year and continues to go at a good clip! Hoping the other stuff stablizes a bit, I do like to eat, really, it's a great thing.

Where things go from here? I have no real idea. I'm starting to get a feel for my little adopted city that is Pittsburgh, and I'm farther along with my own personal journey. What impact those things will have in the future is unknown. However, the name of the site is Kitsuneverse and that means everything that's going on in my little world, right? So expect some more "off topic" things to pop up.

Though, can they really be off topic? I'm not even sure what's real anymore! Help!

Anyway....I also plan to do some reorganizing to the site as a whole too, but we'll see if I get to that or not. I probably will, and likely much later than planned, but it will happen!

Enough rambling, I could go on forever about things here right now if I let myself, so I'll just stop. Stay tuned, going to get things back on track and headed in new directions for this year and where we end up? Nobody knows, but it's gonna be one helluva ride!

Oh, and what's under the couch? A cat. Yep, that's right.

Saturday, October 15, 2016

[HT2016] Halfway Update for Haunt Tour 2016


Well, four weeks (technically 5) through this year's tour and things have been pretty interesting so far this year. Hit quite a few locations that I haven't been to in a few years, and even a totally new event that just started this year. All in all, the quality has been exceptional at almost every haunt that myself, and the rest of the team, has managed to get to.

It's been a crazy, nearly 2,000 mile journey across Pennsylvania and Eastern Ohio so far, and while only 9 haunts have been visited, it's still be quite the adventure on a lot of levels. Sharing some of the experiences with members of the team I don't get so see much, has been a really fun thing to do as well. 

I've absolutely loved seeing all the new and creative ways that the teams behind these creations have come up with to become even more amazing than they already were. Huge love to them for keeping on what they do and coming up with such insane new things all the time.

However, that said, it's with a heavy heart that I have to say that last weekend was the last for Haunt Tour 2016. Due to circumstances out of my control, I just can't finish out the final few weeks. I may be able to get to a local place or two, but those haunts in Cincinnati, Long Island, and possibly Baltimore will have to wait for another time. I really wish it wasn't the case, but life just won't allow for such right now.

The plan at the moment is to continue working on the past reviews that I need to finish and get out and then that'll be that. With so much going on, it's really all I can do. To those haunts I have been to, thanks so much for letting me check out your awesome creations this year, and apologies for not getting the material out sooner, it is coming.

Stay tuned for more details concerning the site coming in the near future.